bad things happen in three's allegedly....

Buried my aunts body last week. thursday infact. it hadnt really hit me till then. neither had her size. she was tiny............. i mean i always knew she was small, but not that small. i was also astounded by how many people she knew................. or had touched and wished to pay respects, so many people who had felt her glow.

after the ceremony came the celebration of life................ we all went to my uncles golf club and drank the free bar dry. ok so we didnt, but we damn well tried. we, well the younger members of the crowd, laughed and cried and reflected. and quoted simpsons, family guy and other such silly nonsense. the amount of family there was amazing, i hadnt seen that many members of the family in one place in a very long time. also it was good to see my second cousins parents in the same place at the same time. this hadnt happened since they divorced, but its stupid that it should take an event of such magnitude to get them to share pleasantries. but they did, and their daughters where quite greatful.

i was quite amazed at how many of my aunts friends i actually knew. and how many i hadnt spoken too. too many to get around in one evening, thats for certain.

some of my friends dont actually understand how important family is, when i say im going to have a meal with my grandparents, they say things like "bunk it off". not on your life. i may get bored, but the same thing can happen with my friends. however blood is thicker than water, especially in this family. my ex couldnt get on with her family, i dont think id be the same without mine. i love them to bits.

heh talking of women, an interesting story..........
Met my aunts half sister for the first time at christmas. oddley attractive girl, i say girl she is ten years older than me. and before anyone goes ............................"ewwww", my aunt married in, so technically we're not blood related. even so i have to admit its bloody close to home. any way not long into the drinking sesh, said half-sister to my aunt has to go. fair enough, she grabs her mother, my aunts step mother and tries to guide her out of the beer garden. as she's leaving she turns round and says loudly "oh YOU'RE [him], you'd make a good toy-boy". the half sister gets embarresed and flusters her way out of the beer garden. only to run back in and apologise for the drunken mother.

score.

scratch one for the fish....................... well sorta....... (although the other thing that just hit me is the old tick tock of the body clock)

moral of the story, dont meet enough girls my own age, but thirty plus year old, relations of deceased members of the family.......... no probs........................
and i still dont know if its right or not.................

other than that, boring weekend. (heh although i have to watch another man crash and burn while trying to chat up some of my female friends i may just wet myself.) (no wonder i can find some women intimidating with friends like these...........)

found out that my gran, the one with the stroke. might be going down with senile dementia.
yep. over the moon about that.
not.

oh and slightly more trivial: they cancelled ghost recon 2 on the pc.

sometime soon something, no matter how small, has to go right for me.

they say spring is all about new beginings, perhaps now is the right time to start again.

in the mean time, before i go to bed, ive got to feed the only pussy im going to sleep with tonight. where has the bloody cat gone??

beef? what beef?

First family meal with the extended family yesterday................ strangely (well until the end just before we all left) no one mentioned my aunt, although my uncle was there. It was good to see him, he seemed ok, but I can understand why my mum is concerned for him, he seemed subdued, quiet. Understandable, i guess. God knows how I'd feel if I lost my wife of 25+ years.

I could see my aunts body tomorrow. I dont think I will, there is a morbid part of me that feels that seeing a corpse is part of maturity, growing up. However seeing the corpse of someone so close is a little too much for me to bare.

Funeral on thursday. First one. i think "an experience" is going to be an understatement.

on other notes, (football/soccer notes) this made me laugh.............

http://news.bbc.co.uk/sport1/hi/football/teams/n/newcastle_united/4405841.stm

So much for team spirit. Bowyer is a lucky man not to be sacked for such behaviour. The man I feel most sorry for is the newcastle manager. As if things arent hard enough for his team already its players have hit self distruct. Idiots.

Better news for the "Superblues"........ Chelsea (im a fairly avid fan if you cared) are 3 wins/9 points away from the premiership title. Although we do have two games against our biggest rivals in the future........... Man utd and Arsenal......... 7 games, 21 potential points. Only time will tell.